I want a time machine

If in this life we have the capacity to go back in time or move forward and we could only use that power once in our entire lifetime, it would be now that I would use it. Anything to not be here... anything to make everything okay... I would do.

I miss my family. I wish I could speed up time and have the capability to solve all our problems, so that we could all be together again. I seldom cry, not to show you I don't care, but to pretend to be strong amidst of all the cries and pains you all are showing. But tonight I just can't be strong enough. I miss you all.. and I wish I have the right things to say or at least assure you that it will all be okay. But tonight I am just too weak. And honestly, it's all clouded up from this sight.