YOU are the hindrance to everything that I NEED to be. And everything that I need to be is the hindrance to the only thing I WANT...YOU.

"We don't stop loving someone, we simply learn to live without them."


and I'm learning...

mY letter for you.

We fought hard against our fate.
But I gave up.
And there’s no way for the damage to be undone.

Dear YOU.I tired to write a hundred and one reasons why I should break up with you… and I did, but before I could finish I realized how childish my reasons are… and how stupid I am for asking my freedom… It has always been easy for me to shut my feelings from every hurt other people had given me… but it has always been hard to shut my feelings out for you. Without you, I just feel so alone in this world. Without you, I feel so lost.

Today, I wanted to ask you back...but I see that you’re doing well. You said that things have been easier without me… how could I even ask you back when you’ve been doing so well without me. You’ve always told me that I could easily let go of what we have… if you only knew… that it took me a year to actually be fine from our first break up, but never totally over you. And now, just a few days and you’re actually doing fine? And I have to hide my pain and my tears from you so you wouldn’t know what I feel…I guess, this time around you’re still the one who gets to be fine and I get to be a hopeless romantic hoping someday there’d still be a chance for “us”. I get to be the one who regrets having to let go of the only real thing in my life.

There’s really not much I can do because I asked for this. And no matter how much I wanted to tell you that I still love you, that I’m still going to do everything just for us to be together… I couldn’t… because you’re doing better without me.

I'm stupid. I'm sorry.

re post

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s people who won’t let me in on the freeway.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s having to let people in on the freeway.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s waking up to 50 assholes pretending to be me.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s waking up feeling like an asshole because I yelled at those assholes.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s people who turn the things I say into insipid greeting card messages.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s turning a bunch of ideas into a laundry list.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s that feeling you get when you scratch something new.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s not knowing what’s wrong with someone and all you want to do is make them feel better.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s knowing that my mind naturally gravitates towards the negative and not being able to stop it.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s people who become your friend, to become your friends’ friend.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s being really busy and using that as an excuse to ignore your email.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s having to acknowledge that my feelings are my own, no one else’s. And, my responsibility.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s forgetting that and taking the way I feel out on the world.

If there's one thing I hate, it's people who criticise things, who can't take criticism.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s going to the same job day-after-day for the same pay.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s not having a job.

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s not you.

It's me.

- via I wrote this for you

one month to go before i turn into a year older. ;s