“Sometimes people are beautiful. Not in looks. Not in what they say. Just in what they are.”

― Markus Zusak, I am the Messenger

Migraine

Im trying my hardest not to think about you, so please, be a little cooperative. Move out, go to a far far away place or something, I don't care what it is, just disappear. It has been way too long since I've played this game, and I don't know how to anymore. I'm at lost.

"This is about you not being able to commit, because committing means saying goodbye to whatever unfulfilled fantasy of love you've concocted after seeing too many Meg Ryan movies. But men don't come and make everything all better - they're only human. And you shouldn't punish him because you were forced to grow up so fast you never learned how to let someone else take care of you. He's not your father, okay, he's not necessarily gonna disappear at the first sign of trouble. And, as scary as it is to consider letting yourself be truly vulnerable with another human being, what's even scarier is that deep down inside you know you picked this man... and if you run away from him now, you'll be running away from being the kind of person you always wanted to be." Carla, Scrubs

"You got it bad when you're out with someone but you keep on thinking about somebody else."

I think...

You're stupid, naive, selfish, a coward and such a flirt which makes you a jerk and I hate you because none of that is true and reality bites me that you are the most gentle and amazing man I've ever met. And I wish you knew that that's how I see you, but it'll be forever a secret, because today will be the last day I'll ever let myself feel this way about you.