mY letter for you.

We fought hard against our fate.
But I gave up.
And there’s no way for the damage to be undone.

Dear YOU.I tired to write a hundred and one reasons why I should break up with you… and I did, but before I could finish I realized how childish my reasons are… and how stupid I am for asking my freedom… It has always been easy for me to shut my feelings from every hurt other people had given me… but it has always been hard to shut my feelings out for you. Without you, I just feel so alone in this world. Without you, I feel so lost.

Today, I wanted to ask you back...but I see that you’re doing well. You said that things have been easier without me… how could I even ask you back when you’ve been doing so well without me. You’ve always told me that I could easily let go of what we have… if you only knew… that it took me a year to actually be fine from our first break up, but never totally over you. And now, just a few days and you’re actually doing fine? And I have to hide my pain and my tears from you so you wouldn’t know what I feel…I guess, this time around you’re still the one who gets to be fine and I get to be a hopeless romantic hoping someday there’d still be a chance for “us”. I get to be the one who regrets having to let go of the only real thing in my life.

There’s really not much I can do because I asked for this. And no matter how much I wanted to tell you that I still love you, that I’m still going to do everything just for us to be together… I couldn’t… because you’re doing better without me.