Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year

This Year I'd like to feel alive.

I'd like to cry and be disappointed
get mad and be crazy
I'd like to choose and decide, and stick to that whatever it is
I'd be more happy, and be more sad
I'd laugh much harder and cry much harder

I'd stop thinking about what ifs and start making things happen.

I'd stop rethinking about things since it only makes me not do things

I'd be happy no matter what

I'd stop being indifferent

I'll do my best every second

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I can't really and don't know how to beautifully put up the thoughts in my head right now, but what Im trying to really say is that, I'd like to feel alive this year. I want to be happy when things are great and stop thinking about why I'm happy, just to enjoy every bit of it because I've come to realize that they don't really last very long, just like sorrow too!
And when I fail myself, or if others fail me, I'd like to be hurt and be disappointed, i'd like to feel every bit of it and realize that these moments are important to know and realize the worth of every trust, hardwork and relationships. I would like to savour every little time that I feel like things aren't going to be alright. But just for a few moments... I'd like to make it last for just a few moments.
I'd like to be happy, this year, and the following years.
I'll make a decision and stick to it, not listening to others as long as I'm happy.I'm not gonna be a coward anymore.
I'll take responsibilities. For my family, for my friends and loved ones. I'll know every consequences of my actions and stand by it.

My thoughts are a mess alright, but I won't make promises anymore that I don't believe in, I won't make changes that will make others happy.

Because My New Year's Resolution for this year ... is to make MYSELF PROUD. :)

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