Sunday, October 12, 2008

thoughts on inspiration

I need an inspiration. Whatever kind of inspiration.. or whoever for that matter. Okay, so it may not be a person... it could be anything, someone else's story, a music, an art..anything really. Anything that would just make me feel something.

What made me feel this way? Being single? No, i dont think so. I dont even think that i was once owned. I was loved, perhaps even wanted. But never owned. Does being alone makes me feel indifferent about everything now? No.

Cutting ties with someone, or with anything, a habit for example... when something ends... the question about how things will be after the separation is what rattles my mind, it's what messes up my feelings.

I need an inspiration. I want something to last. I dont want to come and go into someone's life.. i dont want to just let someone in and out of my life. I want something that'll last. I really dont care how long I should wait. Im not even in a hurry as well. If next time would be "forever".. i dont mind if it'll take a century. I'd have it no other way.

So for now...

I need an inspiration.. just to get me through each day until that "next time".

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