I didn't mean to be rude stranger

exactly!

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There is no way I'm looking
For a boyfirend
There is no way I'm looking
For a scene
I need to save some dough
I'm a working girl you know
I'll fend attention off;
I keep to myself

I love my room,
I'm getting used to sleeping
Some nights I really like
To lie awake
I hear the midnight birds
The message in their words!
The dawn will touch me in a
Way a boy could never touch,
Their promise never meant
So much to me

You have been warned
I'm born to be contrary
Backward at school
I wrote from right to left
Teacher never cared for me
Preacher said a prayer for me
'God help the girl,
She needs all the help she can get'

I sit for hours
Just waiting for his phone call
I'll eat the chocolate
Hidden in the fridge
I'll play his messages
Analyse his intonation
Please stop me there
I'm even boring myself

I think of him
When I'm doing the dishes
I think of him
While looking in the sink
This ain't no play on words
My love for him's absurd
If he gave me a sign
I'd think about it for a week,
I'd build it up
And then I'd turn him down

You have been warned
I'm born to be contrary
Backward at school
I wrote from right to left
Teacher never cared for me
Preacher said a prayer for me
'God help the girl,
She needs all the help she can get'

I wanted to get out of your life because I never liked the feeling of sitting here waiting, unable to do anything, while I'm scared as hell of the things that's happening in your life.

And today, that feeling is back.

belle and sebastian

this band is all love love :)

cannot NOT love em!

Gad... Histo... every question was like... WTF?!

I'm not sure if it's because I've grown stronger or just gone numb...

"it comes so easy when it comes to the part where you're breaking my heart.." - take a bow

I don't know what I am to you. But it has become a habit of yours to treat me as someone you could just get back whenever you like it and throw some shit around. It's like everytime you come and rip out every bit of pride I have left, just so you could get the things you wanna hear from me. But it hurts because knowing those things, how I feel about you and all these, you still won't do anything. That is what hurts the most. And you don't you realize that every time you demand something like that, it just reaps me out in pieces.

Can someone tell me I deserve someone better...can anyone just prove me that.

Because I'm stuck here...nowhere to go.

being still

Something I used to believe, and well, still wanna believe in. But sometimes hope is a hard thing to maintain. Not that it's on top of my priorities right now, it just gets lonely everyday you know.

ahaha lol.lol

awww~ness! SOBRANG CHEESY!!!!

I Wrote This For You: The Ticket Is Valid

And maybe I'll sleep at the station because there's nothing to go home to but an empty fridge and some stale mayonnaise.

And maybe I'll make friends with the guys sleeping under cardboard boxes and newspapers and we'll discuss what it means to love and to live.

And maybe I'll wander the city, one lost particle in a dust storm of Mondays, late nights and reports due yesterday.

And maybe I'll get on a plane or a ship and get lost in places I've never been lost in before.

And maybe I'll keep my phone on me in case you call. And tell me there's something to come home to.


Via I wrote this for you

So, when I was looking for a picture of me and my friend, joyce, so I could give it to her before she leave for some far away land, i realized i didn't have any! haha, not in my possession anyway.

And finally , we have one just last fri! from our despidida-like party.

O dba. Kuhang kuha ang image namin. prang baliw lang na naliligaw . hekhek

on old skul sunday

Heard this song awhile ago. hehe no meaning at all..just misses the song ;)

for two

Almost cried. I'm never be gonna good at these things... I would have been so emotional earlier, good thing I was able to hold myself back.. I just felt alone for a moment. It just felt like the time is near that I would have to lose one of the most important person in my life... well it's not really that way... I just thought ... I'm gonna miss everything. Priorities will change and we can't be childish like before. Well...it just feels like I don't have anyone anymore...

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I remember the days when there was no pressure... like we have all the time in the world to just stay at one place and let time go by. Then it just dawned on me, just today, that the people around me will just continue to pass me by. Change is good, I guess... and looking at the possible future, I could never be more happy enough to see important people in my life to attain the happiness that they deserve.

Someone won't just suddenly feel what you want them to feel unless you give them a reason to feel what you want them to feel. Know what I'm saying??

* feels so unimportant *

coz that' s how you make me feel.

I mean what I say. Of course I always do. But I just often don't see beyond the consequences of what I say or do...

So I dunno...


But I really do mean everything that I make you feel.

I just don't think that I could stand up for that.

pshh...

"Well it kind of hurts
when the kind of word you write
kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve
you can call it fiction
But i like being submerged in your contradictions." - A beautiful mess


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I say there's nothing wrong in making all the pain worthwhile, or standing up for where one has decided to stay...
But for me, I must say, one shouldn't mistake pain for love.
Somehow, somewhere, I wanna believe one can exist without the other.
All I need is one person, to prove me that I can truly believe in that.

I miss smart conversations.

"I Think that loving someone is utterly worthless. And the more you wanted to be loved, the more it will make you miserable." - Skip Beat

holiday's near!

Malamig na ang gabi. Literal huh. ;p

gaah! goosebumps!

it's one thing when people say good stuff about the living. But its another thing when that goodness remains even after death.