on First day of my life

Yours is the first face that I saw
Think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
So I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realized that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home



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*sigh* :(

this song makes me cry :S

on making it right

on soulmates

"What’s a Soul Mate?

It’s like a best friend but more. It’s the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. That someone who makes you a better person. No, actually they don’t make you a better person. You do that by yourself because they inspire you. A soul mate is someone you carry with you forever. It’s one person who knew you, accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens, you’ll always love them and nothing could ever change that."

Via

on your worth

Yep. That's right. That's right. So right.

on another chance

Learn to let go.
And be happy.

on some cute video

How we met ;)

on a song

Are you sleeping through the night?
Do you have someone to hold you tight?
Do you have someone to hang out with?
Do you have someone to hug and kiss you,
Hug and kiss you,Hug and kiss you?
Are you alright?

on whatever

I've been awake for 37 hours.

I've seen Twilight yesterday. And I actually have something to say about it. But ill just get back to it later.

I need to recharge.

And I will...


Right now.


ZZZZzzzz........

on hugs

I really need one...

well...

actually...

a lot.

on love

Yep! That's love right there! It may not be mine, but it does exist...it still does!

And I'll find mine soon...really soon...

Via

on the perfect woman

Nasrudin was talking to a friend, who asked him:

‘Have you never considered getting married, Mullah?’

‘I have,’ replied Nasrudin. ‘In my youth, I resolved to find the perfect woman. I crossed the desert and reached Damascus, and I met a lovely, very spiritual woman, but she knew nothing of the world. I continued my journey and went to Isfahan; there I met a woman who knew both the spiritual and the material world, but she was not pretty. Then I decided to go to Cairo, where I dined in the house of a beautiful woman, who was both religious and a connoisseur of material reality.’

‘Why didn’t you marry her, then?’

‘Alas, my friend, she was looking for the perfect man.’

via

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on what I feel

I've been trying to blog my feelings these past few days. But I can't seem to find the right words. It's not that I don't have anything to blog, actually my mind is so full it feels as if it's gonna explode any moment now. I have to get this out of my system! I'm just feeling a little incomplete these days. I wish I could just let it all out... so I could get over it. But deep inside I really don't want to get over it. Damn.

on some thoughts

I go for the extremes. If I can't have it exactly the way I want it... I'd rather not have it at all.

on some video

We deliver.

Whatever.

Found in Internet

Number 7
Life is sexually transmitted.

Number 6
Good health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.

Number 5
Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without an erection, make him a sandwich.

Number 4
Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach a person to use the Internet and they won’t bother you for weeks.

Number 3
Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing.

Number 2
All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism.

Number 1
In the ’60’s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.

;)

via

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on boredom

Masyado bang tahimik ang buhay mo?

Bakit 'di mo subukang gumawa ng sariling problema?

on something I like

I don't like pop in general, but I'm a sucker for Jpop and Jrock...and yes I totally dig Kpop and Krock too! Ackkk!!!


Sometimes, I wish I dance like this for a living. Shush. I miss dancing. I miss it. I miss... ughh...

You Look Smart

Via

on things i regret

If I were to join a beauty pageant and the question asked to me is


"Do you have any regrets in your life?"

I would have answered these exact same words....

" I would be lying if I would say there isn't anything that I regret in my life, one time or another all of us must have things we failed to do, perhaps because of fear, or uncertainties. It maybe a dress you didn't buy, or a call you didn't make, it could be a place you didn't go to when you had the chance, even an opportunity that you let pass by. We all have regrets in life, and so do I.

I have few regrets, simple to life altering events. I regret not having a grade of 100 in a major exam that I could have aced if only I wasn't too lazy to give effort in my studies, I regret not having to won that debate contest, I regret not having to dance a lot in my younger years, I regret not painting my feelings on a canvass.

I regret not saying sorry to my friends and enemies I have hurt, I regret not helping someone when I had the chance, I regret not giving my time for someone who needs it the most. I regret not letting my family know my true self, I wish they had known me better and I wish I had known them better. Things would have been different if we acted like a real family.

I regret not having to tell the only boy who had the biggest influence in my life that I did liked him too. That I was just stupid and afraid then, and that I'm sorry for taking him for granted. Things would have been different for the both us even if we didn't end up together,the road we're traveling would have been a little better.

Yes, I do regret a lot of things, but I am not saying that what I have right now is not what I always wanted, I regret these moments, but these have also made me wiser. But then again, giving a thought about these things that I regret, I could have been wiser and at the same time a little happier.

I regret these moments not because I want things the other way around, it just makes me think once in a while about how things could have been if I made a different decision at that moment.

But that's life isn't it? We experience, we fail, we learn, we become better person in the end. Perhaps we let some moment pass us by that could have made us happier than what we are now, but then again there's the bigger future out there, we could still make that bigger space a happier place for us.

So yes, I do regret a few things in life, and that is not a bad thing, as long as you do not let this moments haunt you, but rather it should be a lesson learned that have led you to be a little mature in life. These regretful moments maybe lost forever, but this will help you to not do the same mistakes again. "

But of course in a beauty pageant, you're only allowed to say a one-sentence answer. For some reason they are not allowed to give expounding answers.
That would be like Barbie explaining an algebraic equation. Borrrinng.

So I guess, I'll just have to boil my answer down into one sentence...or maybe two.

" I could say there is nothing that I regret in my life, after all I wouldn't be who I am today if not for everything I've been through. That's all, Thank You! Mabuhay!"

That's three dude.

P.S
"I wish for world peace!"

on my day

too much coffee

No SLEEP

Palpitations (or just hallucination??)

cancelled ORIENTATION

Headache

Madagascar

painful flats T.T

dehydration

hungryyyy

sleeppy.... T.T

on something that could help

"You can be happy tomorrow. You can be happy when you get through your list of things to do. You can be happy when you meet the one. You can be happy when you get the right job. You can be happy when you get that raise. You can be happy when you stop buying the things you need and start buying the things you want. You can be happy when you retire. You can be happy when the weather suits you. You can be happy on a plane. You can be happy in the rain.

Or you can stop reading this, take a deep breath, and be happy right now."

Via: I Wrote This For You: The Passing of Time

on simple things

I'm overwhelmed on how small the world is.

Gosh I'm a big fan!




Plurk!!!!

on my favorite book

This is my all time favorite book. It never fails to surprise me whenever a page is flipped. The book itself is a mystery, and it unravels the endless mysteries of the world as well. Perfectly written in such a way that it'll not only make you fall... it'll make you believe.



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I will not tell the story of the book for it might just ruin the magic that it could bring to an individual, although a story was told in the book that is somehow similar to the real story of the book itself.

from pp. 171 of the book

Before I closed my eyes, I began to hear my mother's voice. She was telling a story she had often told me when I was a child, not realizing it was a story about me.

" A boy and a girl were insanely in love with each other," my mother's voice was saying." They decided to become engaged. And that's when presents are always exchanged."

"The boy was poor--- his only worthwhile possession was a watch he'd inherited from his grandfather. Thinking about his sweetheart's lovely hair, he decided to sell the watch in order to buy her a silver barrette."

"The girl had no money herself to buy him a present. She went to the shop of the most successful merchant in the town and sold him her hair.With the money, she bought a gold watchband for her lover."

"When they met on the day of the engagement party, she gave him the wristband for a watch he had sold, and he gave ger the barrette for the hair she no longer had."

*sigh* the real story would make you feel ten times than what this story made you feel.


btw, here's an excerpt from the book that has somehow changed the way I deal with life and love...

on some Christmas thought

Christmas is just around the corner! :)
I put up some decorations on the Christmas tree last night! It seems hard not to hum some Christmas song while decorating the Christmas tree! hehe. Oh boy! I'm excited for Christmas. Haha.




The other day, I heard a conversation on the radio about the real meaning of Christmas, and they discussed about how people nowadays don't even remember what we are really celebrating during this particular date. Notice how people greet each other with "Marry Xmas!" or "Happy Holidays!", that alone is a sign that people is forgetting the real essence of Christmas.
So what is the real meaning of Christmas? It's about Jesus Christ, our savior, being born, it's about our creator who chose to live among us to bring us truth.

For me, Christmas is remembering how a human like us of little faith was saved and loved. Christmas isn't about having an obligation to give out gifts, or having a feast on your table, or having a party or any grand celebration. It's about rejoicing for the precious and eternal gift that was given to us. So really... you don't need a thousand cash on your pocket or receiving wonderful gifts. It's about acknowledging your blessings and sharing even a bit of what was given to you.


So what does Christmas mean to you? ...^^

on my life

Once in my life I feel how it is to do something that I really love.

I have danced;
I sing songs;
I write from time to time;
I sketch my feelings in words and in pictures;
I smile to strangers;
I have given love;
I have received love;
I have been changed by a person's words and beliefs;
I have touched someone else's life;
I have given a share of my blessings;
I have cried;
I've laughed;
I've been a friend, a daughter, a sister and a lover;
I take pictures;
I scream;
I get mad;
I forgive;
I pray;
I believe;
I surrender;
I fight;
I learn;
I stumble and fail;
I seek;
I've sinned;
I ask forgiveness;
I get weak;
I treasure life.
I keep my faith;

You see...I'm not really incomplete.

I do admit that I've expected too much in life... I have expected all the things I love to last forever.. but in this life nothing really last forever.. Sometimes I feel I have nothing and achieved nothing, but when I look back.. I have done the things I've always wanted, just because these things aren't with me now, it doesn't mean it didn't happen. I guess I just need to accept the fact that life has it's limitations..After all, that's what makes life blissful...that things can only happen once... so we need to treasure every moment, because we'll never know when the time is up.





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"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

- Mark Twain

"We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?"

- Dr. Grey

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*Sigh* I sort of miss being a child. :p

on creative needs

I can't seem to make some creative juices come out.Sheesh... I need to create something! I'm lost and I want to get something out of this crazy little head. Seriously. Ughhh... whyyyy oh whyy...?? I'm in need of some sort of inspiration. Help!

on nail arts

One of the few things I'm addicted is painting my nails. ^^


Rainbow! ;)

Very suiting for Halloween! ;)

Oh! If only I could have one of these, then my life would be easier! *wink*

I want this tool, or perhaps just this! http://www.konadnail.com/. I actually saw this Konad thingy back in Singapore... again..it was real stoopid of me not to buy that. Urghhh....



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P.S.

Lol@ d ugly feet ;p

on before sunset

I miss this movie. I could say it's one of my all time favorite movie. It doesn't have any special effects, or any oh-so-romantic scenes like any other love stories out there, there's just conversation all through out the movie, but very wise, full of emotions and full of honesty. I guess that's one thing that makes it different from any other film, it actually deals about expressing emotions honestly. Most of the time, people, especially two people in a relationship, isn't 100% honest with each other, there are some things that are kept from each other hence, making relationships vulnerable. Perhaps it's because people have this fear of not being accepted for their shortcomings, that's why it's better that they just keep it all to themselves. The movie prior to this, was exceptionally well as well, although the first film was just all about the connection the two lead had between them, and their story then was uncomplicated and simple. I liked before sunset more, because the conversation was more mature and realistic, something that could happen in reality. The honesty in their conversation is very heart felt.

I've always liked this movie because they say the things I can't say in real life. And yes, I really see myself in the character of Julie Delpy.


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My favorite conversation in the Movie.
Actually the whole cab scene was my fav.. but it's too long to post it here, so I just post an excerpt from it.

Céline: I was thinking...for me it's better I don't romanticize things as much anymore. I was suffering so much all the time. I still have lots of dreams, but they're not in regard to my love life. (Cut to interior of the car.) It doesn't make me sad, it's just the way it is.

Jesse: Is that why you're in a relationship with somebody who's never around?

Céline: Yes, obviously, I can't deal with the day to day life of a relationship. Yeah, we have, you know, this exciting time together and then he leaves, and I miss him, but at least I'm not dying inside. When someone is always around me, I'm like suffocating!

Jesse: No, wait, you just said that you need to love and be loved...

Céline: Yeah, but when I do it quickly makes me nauseous! It's a disaster... I mean I'm really happy only when I'm on my own. Even being alone...it's better than...sitting next to a lover and feeling lonely. It's not so easy for me to be all romantic. You start off that way and after you've been screwed over a few times...you...you…you forget about all your delusional ideas and you just take what comes into your life. That's not even true I haven't been...screwed over, I've just had too many blah relationships. They weren't mean, they cared for me, but... there were no real...connection or excitement. At least not from my side.

Jesse: God, I'm sorry, is it...is it really that bad? It's not, right?

Céline: (Shaking her head with eyes nearly watering.) You know...it's not even that. I was...I was fine, until I read your fucking book! It stirred shit up, you know? It reminded me how genuinely romantic I was, how I had so much hope in things, and now it's like...I don't believe in anything that relates to love. I don't feel things for people anymore. In a way...I put all my romanticism into that one night, and I was never able to feel all this again. Like...somehow this night took things away from me and...I expressed them to you, and you took them with you! It made me feel cold, like if love wasn't for me!

Jesse: I... I don't believe that. I don't believe that.

Céline: You know what? Reality and love are almost contradictory for me. It's funny...every single of my ex’s...they're now married! Men go out with me, we break up, and then they get married! And later they call me to thank me for teaching them what love is, and…

Jesse: (Smiling sympathetically.) Oh God. (Rubs his face with both hands.)

Céline: …and that I taught them to care and respect women!

Jesse: (Pointing at himself.) I think I'm one of those guys.

Céline: (Yelling.) You know, I want to KILL them!! Why didn't they ask ME to marry them? I would have said "No", but at least they could have asked!! But it's my fault, I know it's my fault, because...I never felt it was the right man. Never! But what does it mean the right man? The love of your life? The concept is absurd; the idea that we can only be complete with another person is...EVIL!! RIGHT??!!

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The script!

Watch "Before Sunset" Movie

Lhove this movie =)

on love

on some quote

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”





-Neil Gaiman



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I agree. But not on the hate part.

I'm still hopeful. ;)

on the future

Future Lasalista!

Animo La Salle?

More like Anime La Salle!


Gohan ikaw ba yan?

on a new day

GOOD morning. Indeed.

Start a new day full of hope and love. Yes you're in for a great day ahead.
Love, smile and be grateful. Things will soon be fine fine fine =)

I got a phone call telling me about a job offer. Hooray!

After 9 applications...
5 invites for initial interviews
3 attended interviews and exams
3 invites for final interview
1 pending final interview
2 jobs offered

finally I'm decided to work. haha!

That ain't so bad. ;)

on what i feel

"It's not about being broken, it's not about losing and it's not about being lonely. It's about the fear of being indifferent, the fear of not being capable of feeling the same thing again. Sometimes when you love so much that pain is the only thing left to feel, love starts to sink somewhere deep. And you began to ask yourself... will I be able to feel again? To love again?..."

on life

"Your love, hope and faith for something wonderful to come. It's what keeps you alive. It's what keeps you going. So don't ever let go of what you love the most, your happiness is what's at stake."


How about you, what do you like best in the world?

on some post taken from diane

I'm re blogging this from diane's page.. funny moments =)

on some addiction

I never stop unless I have the things I want in life. Then there are things, that for some unknown REASONS, you can't seem to have. And when it happens, life really sucks. But my addiction never stops just because I'm told to "STOP!". Why should I? My mind never stops wondering, my heart has a thousand questions. I need to understand. I need to know. I need to HAVE all the answers. Why should I stop just because it's complicated, just because it's hard to decipher, just because it's out of my control (as of now). I do believe someday it will be in my control, and when that time comes, be ready...because I'll make sure it's Pay back time!

Pic source

on some reminder

Found this here.

This is just a reminder...and this is kind of serious, you know.

on random things

There are some things I'm badly missing.

I miss driving, I miss my jazz even more! I miss being at school, college life to be exact. I miss my uberly weird and hilarious friends, all of them. I miss nyf pizza. I miss Pepsi! I've had enough coca cola. I miss the beach, the sand and the sun! I miss laughing out loud and hard till I choke. I miss my best friend. I miss sweet messages. I miss waking up from a phone call. I kinda miss hearing your voice. I miss being stupid. I miss being happy, I miss the rush, the excitement, the thrill. I miss being carefree. I miss being cared for. I miss arguments. I miss being in Love. I miss being hurt. I miss feeling alive.

Some things are not just right when you feel nothing. I miss all those feelings. I want to be overly happy, overly cared for, overly stressed, overly loved, overly in love and overly hurt. I want to FEEL ALIVE.

on some random mem'ry

I'm nervous. Just sharing some funny memory from my college buddies to ease my nervousness.


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Uso kasi noon and pekpek shorts. Nasa mall kami ng biglang sumigaw si Loisa ng "Ui! pekpek oh!". Napatingin kaming dalawa ni Diane sabay sabi ng "Saan???!!!". Napansin ko bigla rin napatingin ung salesman na malapit. Siguro... hinahanap nya rin kung nasaan ung pekpek. Syempre, halakhakan na ang sunod dun. :))

on shopping

Not that I'm trying to imply something more here. But uh that's just the closest pic I could find that's similar to my post. So yeah, me and my sister we're shopping the other day and we kind of talked about how shopping takes a way your stress, even if the source of stress is money itself. Even big, serious problems melt away even just a little bit whenever girls do shopping. It's a boost for a girl's self esteem and an outlet for disappointment, anger and even depression. This is one of many amazing stuff about girls, I could say. Well you see, it's better that our outlet for all the negative stuff in the world is shopping, it's much much better than yelling and nagging and ranting about things that's out of our hands at the moment. And as the pic say... if you're not satisfied, you can just opt for an exchange or even a refund. I luuurve shopping. =)

on Guilt

I'm officially broke. There are just some things that I can't control even if the situation is crucial. I am guilty of spending money once again from my invisible savings. But dresses are my weakness... I just don't want to regret anything if I let this pass again. But hey, I deserve some rewards from my hard work...dont I? *wink* *wink*

They're beautiful...right? ^^

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I'm guilty of not giving money to the needy. I realize that not even a percentage of my blessings is shared for those who really need it... I wish I could just give money to those little kids asking me for some coins. Buy you see, I don't really like giving money to them since I really couldn't be sure if they'd spend it on good things... but hey I did gave them a quarter of my lunch...that's okay at least...i think. Well... I'm sorry I can't bring food anytime anywhere to give to these needy the way I used to with my Pasugod.

I'm guilty for spending so money that I don't have instead of giving out some help to those in need... I'm guilty of not sharing... but hey...who isn't anyway?

on Today

I applied for a job today. And whew! it was exhausting! Sitting and waiting anxiously all day could really be so tiring, aside from the fact that I really did not eat anything the whole day! I was even having doubts if I could commute home, with the mini dress and a 3 inches heel. Haha! I should have taken some pictures because it happen so rare these days that I'm looking so presentable (puro pekpek shorts and tube lng kc meron sa closet! hehe), but for some reason last night my mind was off due to gilbey's that i did put the battery on the charger but I didn't plug the charger. Stupid. I can't even remember how I got home last night though, and when soberness had come back I realized someone tried to hit on me last night. Ughhh..disgusting. Seriously, the mind of people have been so corrupt and well.. perverted. And I just realized if anything had happened last night I wouldn't be sober or even strong enough to fight for my life..but then again maybe my Knight in shining armor would come rushing and shouting " Let go of my maiden for she is mine alone!" and I'd be like "My hero..".

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Crap that!

I would have beaten the hell out of anyone who come near me. Drunk or sober I could fight for myself. I ain't no damsel in distress, I dont need rescuing.

Haha. Didn't my blog say "on today" why am I blogging about yesterday?
I dunno..but all I can say, having a job is so soon for me :)

on some random things

Since napapanahon naman...

I found this a few years back at deviantart.com.. but i kind of forgot where exactly.

I want to show this because it's really funny ;) hehe love Inu Yasha so much ^^

"Trick or Treat!"

Happy Halloween Guys!

*lot's of love and kisses*

on some ym convos

k: good luck, dr. hernandez!

kaoruhimura_gulz: lol

k: sana gwapo lahat ng classmates mu!

kaoruhimura_gulz: hahahah amen to that

k: gwapo pa nmn ung mga naka puting robe!

kaoruhimura_gulz: hahaha dpende minsan gwapo lang ung puting robe

kaoruhimura_gulz: hehehehhe

k: hahaha!


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Totoo naman dba? Minsan kaya mong i-alter ang mga bagay bagay para maging pabor sayo ang sitwasyon. ;)

on another sabbath day

Blogging about another day. It's just another day.

Don't get me wrong... I love days especially when I spend it with the most lovable people in the world, my family. Of course, I'm exaggerating...well if there's a more exaggerating word than exaggeration then that would be the right word.

*ehem*

Anyway, one thing about my family is that they never ever ever lose appetite for food. And we are not really in the big sizes department mind you. Sometimes we could even pass as an "S', and when miracles really do happen an "XS" would be added to the closet. ;)

This btw, is Dencio's Heavenly Sisig

Now you see it..

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Now you don't.

TAOB.






Busog? Hmmm... d masyado. ;p

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Yeah, I do know I should be blogging about more important things, I should get my life started.. But really..right now I'm just depending on my instincts and NOTHING really feels right at the moment. Sure I could get a job located a hundred km. away from home and it wouldn't really be a problem..but the thing is, there are no job offers that feel really right right now. And dang...June is really a bit far away still..Gosh... Med school!!! I'll be with yah soon! Don't lose the will Gerlie... Don't lose the will. ;S

on who I'm missing everyday,...

the laughs,

tenderness,


the hugs,


kisses,


warmth,

your honesty,


your insights,

knowledge,


your care,



your eyes,


the feel of your hands,



your voice...

and the unconditional love you gave...







I really miss you Nanay...

I could still remember the words you've told me that brought tears in my eyes...Once, you told me that you wish my suffering was yours instead...and that it pains you to see me like that. That very moment I knew I was loved... and knowing that, how could I ask for something more in life?... Losing you was difficult and painful.. But you know, a part of me is rejoicing..because you are now beside our creator..and that brings me so much joy that your suffering has ended. Nanay, your death is nothing. I don't even believe that the death of the mortal body is the end. I am hopeful and longing for your tenderness... and someday it'll happen..in the new life that our creator has prepared for us. Until then... know that I Love You so much Nanay.

I'll miss you...everyday.