on rainy days

I wanted to catch a glimpse of the rain this morning, but I was just too lazy to get up and spoil the nice feeling the rain brought in my slumber...


Rain is nice...But I still need my sunshine back.

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I guess I was just dreaming when I thought someone's here to bring my sunshine back.
And really I dunno, I'm not sure.

on a side note

yay! sunshine is back :p

More sand

More Beach

More HEAT

MOOOOOREEE!!!!!!



;p

Last time I checked I was out of high school.........


AND COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



GAD! THIS LIFE IS UNBELIEVABLE!!!!

on blah blahs

Via Littlemiss


Are you really gonna ruin our two-year-period encounters?

Just one of those none-sense moments ;)

on some fantasy

Just because it's valentines day. Let me tell you about some fantasy I have, and it's really cheesy...but for the sake of Heart's day...I'd like to share this:

I'd like to wake up in the middle of the night from a rock thrown at my window, and find the most special person in the world for me. He would give me the sweetest smile and tell me to get dressed because he'll show me something beautiful. We would drive up the hill and stop at a place with the most amazing scene, and he would surprise me and tell me that the reason why he brought me there was to show me something that doesn't happen everyday..he would show me meteor showers that lit up the whole sky... And I don't need flowers, or fancy dinners, or expensive gifts. Just his intentions and effort to make me happy and feel special.

on venting out!

Something that just pisses me off...
I just don't like it when certain people tells you that there is something wrong with the way you look, or the way you carry yourself, or the way you are. I mean, c'mon! These type of people think that they're so effing great and that there is nothing wrong with them, when truth be told, people who pinpoint other people's mistakes and shortcomings are the ones who are much more insecure about themselves. All I'm saying is that, no one is perfect so don't go about telling me what I lack, because you're not better than me in any aspect. So please! GET A LIFE!


$%^&*&^%$^^$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on what I feel right now

I'm in this very big-pretend-way situation. Pretending that life is wonderful. Pretending that I am so happy. Pretending that everything is doing fine. Pretending that I am better off without you. And I don't know why I am pretending. I don't know who I am trying to please. The thing is, my LIFE is exactly the way it is before you came and after you left. But after we both went our own way, you sort of took all the sense in my little carefree life. And that is unfair. So unfair. Not only for me, but for the people I would meet in the long run. I lost the sense of everything. I think I'm just a soul that passes by, just letting time pass by. I don't feel anymore. I just feel so indifferent.




And that is just something I feel right NOW. Tomorrow when I wake up, I won't feel this thing again. In fact... I won't feel anything at all.

on some thoughts

I don't understand, and I don't think I'll ever do. I'm not over it and I don't think I'll ever want to. There are people who choose to go on separate ways because they believe that they're better off without each other but then on other aspects, there's just something that messes up my system about people going separate ways because they want to protect each other from painful things. It's just absurd and illogical. If the reason to be happy is still there..why leave things the way they are?..





And so what if I'm not making any sense?

just bec. I dont have anything to blog

I just found two pair of shoes I've been dying to have, only to find out that there's no size for me. How great can that be ;-s

on the first week of 2009

Only a week had passed for this year and I feel so EXHAUSTED! It's as if I've already used up all my energy for the whole year!!! GAHHH!!! Get me out of here! :'(

on a very awful day

Someone stole my phone and my camera. Well I don't really care that much for my phone since it's already old and it needs to be replaced anyway... But do they really have to take my camera too??? I love that thing so much. It's my bestfriend...after losing my car Pasugod. :(

Awful day. Merry Christmas to whoever you are. May you be at peace eating your Noche Buena.

on forget-me-not notes

It was obviously easy to get over you even from the start. You're not my greatest love not even my first. I am clear with that. The problem is, whenever I close my eyes and think of that ideal one for me... I always end up thinking about you instead. Damn.

on ranting

I hate it how some people just blurt out what's on their mind without even thinking its consequences, and later on their actions would contradict what they've just said! God...they annoy me so much. They're so selfish that WHAT THEY WANT is the ONLY thing that's IMPORTANT AT THAT PARTICULAR MOMENT!!! Then when you give in to what they want (Just so they would stop nagging!), sooner or later, they would blame and bug you about the things you gave up just so you could give way to what they wanted! Stupid, isn't it?

on a busy weekend

TGIF!!! Night out with my co trainees-slash-wavemates!
Fun filled night!!!!

CHEERS!!!

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Welcome to the Christian world Terrence Jude Hernandez!!!


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I had my NMAT today! Dang... all I can say is that it was so COLD!!! Brrr!!! (Oh God...please give me a high score :-s)

on first pay day

Yep! My FIRST Pay day! ooh! It's so cool to be a grown up! :p
But I think I made more money when I was a student than now. Haha! Oh well... at least I worked hard this time...okay not so hard. But oh boy! I have my own money! MINE! :)

on guilt

"Why can't we be together?"

I do know how you gave me so much than what I've asked for, and you also know how thankful I am because of that. You mean so much to me that I am willing to give up everything and anything if that would be your will, after all, everything I have is yours. I worship you and only you. But sometimes...when this particular question hits my brain... I can't help but feel that you are very unfair. You know how much I've longed for it...and yet... you still disapprove of it. And I'm sorry if I feel that way.

"For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct Him?"
-1 Corinthians 3:16

on blahs

I hate offending people but it's like a hidden talent of mine. :'(

on what I feel

I've been trying to blog my feelings these past few days. But I can't seem to find the right words. It's not that I don't have anything to blog, actually my mind is so full it feels as if it's gonna explode any moment now. I have to get this out of my system! I'm just feeling a little incomplete these days. I wish I could just let it all out... so I could get over it. But deep inside I really don't want to get over it. Damn.

on things i regret

If I were to join a beauty pageant and the question asked to me is


"Do you have any regrets in your life?"

I would have answered these exact same words....

" I would be lying if I would say there isn't anything that I regret in my life, one time or another all of us must have things we failed to do, perhaps because of fear, or uncertainties. It maybe a dress you didn't buy, or a call you didn't make, it could be a place you didn't go to when you had the chance, even an opportunity that you let pass by. We all have regrets in life, and so do I.

I have few regrets, simple to life altering events. I regret not having a grade of 100 in a major exam that I could have aced if only I wasn't too lazy to give effort in my studies, I regret not having to won that debate contest, I regret not having to dance a lot in my younger years, I regret not painting my feelings on a canvass.

I regret not saying sorry to my friends and enemies I have hurt, I regret not helping someone when I had the chance, I regret not giving my time for someone who needs it the most. I regret not letting my family know my true self, I wish they had known me better and I wish I had known them better. Things would have been different if we acted like a real family.

I regret not having to tell the only boy who had the biggest influence in my life that I did liked him too. That I was just stupid and afraid then, and that I'm sorry for taking him for granted. Things would have been different for the both us even if we didn't end up together,the road we're traveling would have been a little better.

Yes, I do regret a lot of things, but I am not saying that what I have right now is not what I always wanted, I regret these moments, but these have also made me wiser. But then again, giving a thought about these things that I regret, I could have been wiser and at the same time a little happier.

I regret these moments not because I want things the other way around, it just makes me think once in a while about how things could have been if I made a different decision at that moment.

But that's life isn't it? We experience, we fail, we learn, we become better person in the end. Perhaps we let some moment pass us by that could have made us happier than what we are now, but then again there's the bigger future out there, we could still make that bigger space a happier place for us.

So yes, I do regret a few things in life, and that is not a bad thing, as long as you do not let this moments haunt you, but rather it should be a lesson learned that have led you to be a little mature in life. These regretful moments maybe lost forever, but this will help you to not do the same mistakes again. "

But of course in a beauty pageant, you're only allowed to say a one-sentence answer. For some reason they are not allowed to give expounding answers.
That would be like Barbie explaining an algebraic equation. Borrrinng.

So I guess, I'll just have to boil my answer down into one sentence...or maybe two.

" I could say there is nothing that I regret in my life, after all I wouldn't be who I am today if not for everything I've been through. That's all, Thank You! Mabuhay!"

That's three dude.

P.S
"I wish for world peace!"