Love

Watched Love in the time of Cholera. I wonder if there were ever exist a love like Florentino's. Heh. Scarlett O'Hara and Ashley Wilkes's love story is much more believable. :s
sigh... I wonder when will u ever come? My Prince that I've always prayed for...My Prince that i thought I almost had.

Maybe someday... I could be told I'm Loved by someone who can be man enough to actually prove it to me.

Not done. But maybe, just maybe, 'till next time.

And so, I wait because you have already left and my work here, is done. I wait and wonder how my skin feels like it’s made of love letters written a hundred years too soon (too late). I wonder at the mystery of life and how much of it can possibly remain. I wonder at pain and hurt and love and time and how much of each I held. I wonder at how I cannot remember anything in my life before I met you. I wonder at the tiniest of touches and try, desperately, to keep their memories alive. I wonder at loneliness. I wonder at how long it’ll be, before I see you again. I wait. And I wonder. - via IwroteThisForYou

the answer

because i know deep inside, i'll just keep coming back no matter what.

dead end?

When one foot is out the door... why does it become harder?

I know Someone would treat me better... I know someone will value my worth more than you do... But then again... I don't know why I'm still here...

hey

I'm fucking tired of you.

on a note

When you're in the phase of your life where you know exactly who you are, who you want to be with and what you want to do for the rest of your life, suddenly, everything seems so hard to attain.
So do u give up and just walk away from it?
A lot of people spend their whole lifetime searching for a purpose in life, searching for one thing or one person that could give them the happiness that they would sacrifice anything for...
And here I am, just letting pain, hardships and sacrifices eat me alive...
I'm asking this question... Why must it be this hard??
then ...i realized...that really... i never liked when things are easy... This is exactly what i want, how i want it.. and if it takes a lifetime for me to reach these goals... well..that is exactly what i have.. A lifetime.


- Note to self

Still fighting!

I could have done much better... sigh.. :(

I know it'd be selfish to ask... "What about me?". I want nothing but goodness for my family... and what I've dedicated my life for is not just my responsibility to my family, but also a responsibility and a promise I made for my Lord. And if I have to start from scratch and if i have to bleed every day just to fulfill my mission, I would. And I will promise myself, everyday, that I will do everything to bring all the goodness my family had gave me. I will work hard everyday to bring back what my family has lost...

I'll do whatever it takes to make it.