Tomorrow I'll start finding my own fate. It starts with you... so please at least be a little great. See you. :)

As I grow older, I realized it's easier to admit the things I'm scared to face when I was a bit younger... Like how I care about someone.. So just ask me. And I won't deny it.

Everyone treats me extra special. That's how it has always been. So treat me in a totally different way, so I would know.

The one who falls in love, loses.

I don't know why i believe such thing.

My life is a freakin' mess.

I'm not a stalker nor a hopelessly in love girl who would throw her whole life just waiting for that one day in the universe where you'd finally acknowledge my existence. I have my own life, I follow my own dreams, I focus on the things that matter to me and none of these goals in my life is directed to you. But when i really think of what I really want, of who I really want to be with in the end, I still have not erased that possibility of fate giving me a chance to be that girl you'd been longing for.

I've yet to live my life to the fullest. I've yet to show him how I've grown up to be a fine lady. I've yet to let him see how better I've become. So please Lord..don't take him away yet. I want him to be a part of how someday I'd be able to get that Medical degree and see him so proud of me, I want him to walk me down the aisle when I find the man who'll take good care of me like how he did as I was growing up, I want him to see my little princes and princesses. I want him to be a part of all that... So please daddy...be with me till then...will you?

#sometimes, it feels like im gonna lose you any moment, and it hurts to realize that there are things in my life that has not happened yet, where you're presence and love is much needed#

should i decide it's true
that you'd return if given half the chance to come....
but it's not true

"Don't settle for someone who doesn't give you things to say. Forever is a long time to make small talk."


these days...that's kinda hard to find.

Whenever I fall.

Because it seems like everyone for me is just a phase. And you're someone that's never gone.

:'(

There's a reason why we SHOULD be asleep at this hour. It's to not entertain unwanted thoughts...like thoughts of you, perhaps.