exactly!

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There is no way I'm looking
For a boyfirend
There is no way I'm looking
For a scene
I need to save some dough
I'm a working girl you know
I'll fend attention off;
I keep to myself

I love my room,
I'm getting used to sleeping
Some nights I really like
To lie awake
I hear the midnight birds
The message in their words!
The dawn will touch me in a
Way a boy could never touch,
Their promise never meant
So much to me

You have been warned
I'm born to be contrary
Backward at school
I wrote from right to left
Teacher never cared for me
Preacher said a prayer for me
'God help the girl,
She needs all the help she can get'

I sit for hours
Just waiting for his phone call
I'll eat the chocolate
Hidden in the fridge
I'll play his messages
Analyse his intonation
Please stop me there
I'm even boring myself

I think of him
When I'm doing the dishes
I think of him
While looking in the sink
This ain't no play on words
My love for him's absurd
If he gave me a sign
I'd think about it for a week,
I'd build it up
And then I'd turn him down

You have been warned
I'm born to be contrary
Backward at school
I wrote from right to left
Teacher never cared for me
Preacher said a prayer for me
'God help the girl,
She needs all the help she can get'

I wanted to get out of your life because I never liked the feeling of sitting here waiting, unable to do anything, while I'm scared as hell of the things that's happening in your life.

And today, that feeling is back.

belle and sebastian

this band is all love love :)

cannot NOT love em!

Gad... Histo... every question was like... WTF?!

I'm not sure if it's because I've grown stronger or just gone numb...

"it comes so easy when it comes to the part where you're breaking my heart.." - take a bow

I don't know what I am to you. But it has become a habit of yours to treat me as someone you could just get back whenever you like it and throw some shit around. It's like everytime you come and rip out every bit of pride I have left, just so you could get the things you wanna hear from me. But it hurts because knowing those things, how I feel about you and all these, you still won't do anything. That is what hurts the most. And you don't you realize that every time you demand something like that, it just reaps me out in pieces.

Can someone tell me I deserve someone better...can anyone just prove me that.

Because I'm stuck here...nowhere to go.

being still

Something I used to believe, and well, still wanna believe in. But sometimes hope is a hard thing to maintain. Not that it's on top of my priorities right now, it just gets lonely everyday you know.

ahaha lol.lol

awww~ness! SOBRANG CHEESY!!!!

I Wrote This For You: The Ticket Is Valid

And maybe I'll sleep at the station because there's nothing to go home to but an empty fridge and some stale mayonnaise.

And maybe I'll make friends with the guys sleeping under cardboard boxes and newspapers and we'll discuss what it means to love and to live.

And maybe I'll wander the city, one lost particle in a dust storm of Mondays, late nights and reports due yesterday.

And maybe I'll get on a plane or a ship and get lost in places I've never been lost in before.

And maybe I'll keep my phone on me in case you call. And tell me there's something to come home to.


Via I wrote this for you