on a note

When you're in the phase of your life where you know exactly who you are, who you want to be with and what you want to do for the rest of your life, suddenly, everything seems so hard to attain.
So do u give up and just walk away from it?
A lot of people spend their whole lifetime searching for a purpose in life, searching for one thing or one person that could give them the happiness that they would sacrifice anything for...
And here I am, just letting pain, hardships and sacrifices eat me alive...
I'm asking this question... Why must it be this hard??
then ...i realized...that really... i never liked when things are easy... This is exactly what i want, how i want it.. and if it takes a lifetime for me to reach these goals... well..that is exactly what i have.. A lifetime.


- Note to self

Still fighting!

I could have done much better... sigh.. :(

I know it'd be selfish to ask... "What about me?". I want nothing but goodness for my family... and what I've dedicated my life for is not just my responsibility to my family, but also a responsibility and a promise I made for my Lord. And if I have to start from scratch and if i have to bleed every day just to fulfill my mission, I would. And I will promise myself, everyday, that I will do everything to bring all the goodness my family had gave me. I will work hard everyday to bring back what my family has lost...

I'll do whatever it takes to make it.

“It’s when I’m standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I’m still in love with you. It’s when I’m sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It’s when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you’re the only one who really knew me at all. It’s when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It’s when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me.”
— ~ James Frey

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things are gonna change. and it worries me. :s

Just thankful everyday for another chance with you. ^^